about me

WARNING: I ramble too much.

Hi my name's Malhar. First name's Malhar and last name's Siddiki. And yes I'm completely aware of how strange my name is and chances are that you probably didn't pronounce it right the first time. *chuckles* It's okay. ^^ It's pronounced Mall-har Sid-eeki. My first name is of Sanskrit origin and my last name is Arabic. Malhar is an Indian raga and according to legend, it is so powerful that when sung, torrential rain falls from the sky. Siddiki is derived from the Arabic word Siddiq, which means "truthful"

I'm eighteen years old and I don't feel that way at all. I talk a lot and get told to shut up 83252383201435 times a day. My thoughts are pretty mature but when I speak/act it's a whole other story. I never take anything seriously and tend to be really irresponsible and nobody in this whole entire world ever takes me seriously.

I'm too nice. Up to the point where people tell me that I need to be meaner. I find it extremely hard to be mean to people. I've tried a couple of times when I had to but it just doesn't work with me. In the end I always end up being the nice one.

I'm Pakistani. Both my mum and dad were born in Pakistan and moved here around 30 years ago. I love my family. I've been blessed to have been born into such an awesome family. And not just my immediate family, but also my extended family. My aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins, 2nd cousins, etc. I love them so much. We're really close. I have one sibling. A 28 year old sister.

I like web design a lot. For some strange reason, I find coding HTML to be really tharapeutic. Also, I like how I can use a website to convey all my real thoughts and personality to the world since I'm not really an "open" type of person and nobody in the whole entire world understands me at all so I feel like I need a website as an outlet. I'm socially inadequate. Why else would I be here?

I can draw really good. It's a talent that I've had since I was little.

The most unfunniest and mundane things in the world make me laugh hysterically. And when people ask me why I'm laughing, I usually avoid telling them because they don't understand. If I do, most of the time they're like "What...?"

I love Bollywood. It's the only thing that I can rely on other than ice cream to make me feel better after having a shitty day. I used to be embarrassed by that fact and wouldn't tell anyone but I am now damn proud. SUCK IT. I was raised on that stuff.

I also like video games. My favorite game ever is Harvest Moon. I never get bored of it. I also like Rune Factory, Pokemon, Zelda, and Assassin's Creed games

I have the best music taste in the whole entire world. I hate most popular/mainstream music. I listen to mostly rock and 90s music. I love boybands. 90s boybands. Like Backstreet Boys and NSYNC. Not the shitty new ones they have out nowadays like One Direction and stuff. Ew.

I have this problem where I overthink things too much. And sometimes I don't think at all. It's never in between. I have decision making problems.

I like debating politics and religion and the existence of God and stuff. One thing I look for in someone who never gets bored of anything like that and is willing to discuss them as much as I am. It’s hard finding people like that, you know. And people who are on the same level of understanding it as much as I am without finding themselves getting lost. That just makes someone a billion times more attractive.